Ali.boo

I am an upturned face with my eyes on your soul, and I don’t want your love but living is my goal. & anytime you hurt me I will not fall. Because you hurt more than I ever had. Ever had, at all. & when you start to miss me - I know your heart will hurt. But nurture the memories and go one smiling cause if not they’ll lose their worth.

I just want to stop thinking about you. I can’t believe we aren’t together anymore and yet I can. I try not to think, but it gets hard at times. This place is like a memory pot and all you do is stir it up. I don’t know anything it seems and I hate it. What do I do now? I moved across the country for you. I don’t understand anything right now and i feel pretty lost.

My decision to move back was prompted by my need to have my best friend and the love of my life. So far I’ve regretted my decision whole-heartedly. My best friend talks about me behind my back and my so called love doesn’t want to be around me. There is more to this but I mean no one is here to read me. Just needless to say my heart aches and I feel like a fucking moron.

I don’t feel like I understand anyone anymore. My family, my friends, my possible likes. People are just ridiculous.